I decided that I shall not indulge in self pity today but instead lift myself up, count my blessings and appreciate myself today
My blessings :
- My family - for being there during my financial difficulties, divorce and continuous support through my ups/downs
- My health - to allow me to live life to the fullest. I am healthy enough to talk, walk, make decisions for myself, love others etc
- My friends - for being there for me through good/bad times. We may not spend a lot of time together but I know that they will be there for me when I shout for help
- A - for giving me my gal, for showing me on what I want in a life long partner, for being 'there' for me, for tolerating my childish behavior for the many years
- My work - for giving me the financial security that I need to bring up my gal, the people that I have met, those who have helped me to move up the ladder
- My past experiences - my depression, people whom have come into my life, the lessons that I've learnt, the challenges that I've faced
- My gal - for being my pillar of strength, serving as a constant reminder that I have to be strong for her as I am the sole provider, for loving me unconditionally, letting me know that I am deeply loved
- God - for letting me have a chance to know him, answering my prayers and gaining strength from him
- Fellow bloggers - who allowed to understand why I feel in a certain way, to learn from others, to relate to others, give compassion when others need it.
I appreciate and love myself for:
- Picking myself up after A and wanting to be a better person
- Knowing what is right and trying to do right by others (Not successful but I am still trying)
- For not lashing out at her, despite the pain I have inside myself
- For not telling him my inner most thoughts (that I want to be with him)
- Trying to come to terms that there will never be a "us" and learning to be by myself
- For stopping my excessive drinking and trying to find other ways to cope with my pain
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