I saw her new WA profile pic and I knew she attended service yesterday
That explained why they were ‘missing’ from WA the whole morning
I guess she maybe still trying very hard to remove me and what happened from her memory
I eventually didn’t take half day
I changed my mind and asked him to send me back to ofc
instead of just dropping me offI literally saw his expression plastered on his face but he replied ok as long as he was back by 1.30pm
He didn’t ask if I wanted lunch and I had to initiate it… otw back ofc – I suspected he could have promised his family to be back hence his distraction
And guess what? I was right – he used his mum as an excuse again
I kept burping otw to the hospital and became alittle
dizzy and nauseous
I gave a remark that I couldn’t be so lucky rightAnd his immediate reaction was? He drove through a red light
Trust me when I said I seriously don’t want to go through that again, even more than him
The mental torture, guilt, hatred for myself.. the frustration of him not taking responsibility
No thanks… frankly I am so afraid, what if I really am so lucky? I absolutely cannot be so unlucky right?
But that could explain my sudden tiredness last week but it would have been abnormally fast…
I’m so scared… I want to confide in someone but I don’t know who to confide in
I feel so alone.. what do I do? God help me