Could it be?

For some reason – she decided to unblock me after noon today
I saw her new WA profile pic and I knew she attended service yesterday
That explained why they were ‘missing’ from WA the whole morning
I guess she maybe still trying very hard to remove me and what happened from her memory

I eventually didn’t take half day

I changed my mind and asked him to send me back to ofc instead of just dropping me off
I literally saw his expression plastered on his face but he replied ok as long as he was back by 1.30pm
He didn’t ask if I wanted lunch and I had to initiate it… otw back ofc – I suspected he could have promised his family to be back hence his distraction
And guess what? I was right – he used his mum as an excuse again

I kept burping otw to the hospital and became alittle dizzy and nauseous

I gave a remark that I couldn’t be so lucky right
And his immediate reaction was? He drove through a red light

Trust me when I said I seriously don’t want to go through that again, even more than him
The mental torture, guilt, hatred for myself.. the frustration of him not taking responsibility
No thanks… frankly I am so afraid, what if I really am so lucky? I absolutely cannot be so unlucky right?
But that could explain my sudden tiredness last week but it would have been abnormally fast…
I’m so scared… I want to confide in someone but I don’t know who to confide in
I feel so alone.. what do I do? God help me