What was I expecting?

Caught him before he left the office (again and w/o speaking to me)
Asked him why
Gave me a load of bull about not being able to give me happiness and that he is not a control/possessive freak blar blar blar blar
Told him to just give me the truth but felt that he continued to give me lies
I told him straight that I gave him many chances to go back but he refused
It was cruel of him to say one thing and changed his mind the next moment
that he thought that I would be happier w/o him – I told him he had no right to decide what I wanted
I ended with telling him that I always asked him what he wanted but he never cared to ask what I wanted
And I thought that he was a fucking selfish bastard and ended at that

I feel even worse than last night

I feel so dumb for believing in him, how could I be so stupid?
He’s such a coward! He has no guts to tell anyone the truth at all
I thought he was a better man and I’m so disappointed that he turned out otherwise
Stupid me thought that he would appreciate me for what I’ve put in and boy I am so wrong
I was nothing but a mere toy to play by the sideline and he’s gone on back to what he has always wanted and never given up
I am so angry
But I'm not sure if I'm more angry at him or myself
I guess at myself for putting my vulnerable stupid self, in this position