Reminder to self

She is not my enemy, I must stop stalking her
She has every right to be with him, not me
I did her wrong by participating in this
She has every right to be angry with me
 
And I have every right to be angry at him
He lied and still is…
His wedding ring – picture, ring imprint
Flowers - Sub credit card
Picture of sunrise & sea

I have no right to be angry

He is giving no promises now – no love mentioned

I want to forgive him

For holding on to me
So that there is someone to listen to him, feed his ego/pride
For not abiding by his promises to her
It’s obvious he wants the best of both worlds
Hope that she doesn’t catch on
He’s not doing anything for me anyway so… what’s the point of pinning hope?

I want to forgive myself

For engaging in this
For lying to myself
For allowing myself to be belittled or used
For my wrong choices
For hurting her – I have no right

I don’t want to hold on anymore

I want to spend more time making myself feel good
Concentrate on my child
Enough of pinning
It’s over (I feel so relieved)